Hello. Welcome to episode a 175 of Daily ish. It's for, Wednesday, 07/13/2016. Feels like, 26 degrees out, but it's actually 23. Don't let the humidity or whatever it is out there.
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Speaker 1:Thank you very much for those of you who do and if you're interested in checking it out, visit patreon.com/ichris. You can check out how you can support my podcasting efforts a little more directly with a dollar or 2 a month. First of all, shout out to at YouTube Staffer and my new best friend Sula who sent me a copy of Fools Rush In, a true story of love, war and redemption by Bill Carter. It's a book that's about a guy who author, a guy who ran into Sarajevo and the Bosnian and Herzegovian Herzegovian war started in the early nineties. He was featured live via satellite often with U2 who's happened to be in concert at the time touring Europe.
Speaker 1:And I started yesterday and about a quarter of the way through already. Definitely a great read, easy page turner, not easy content to read obviously as he's at least where I am in the story, he's just getting into Sarajevo and and sort of the the circle of Bosnian folks who are around armies who are around them, basically killing them at night, but letting aid and food into the city for a price obviously as it goes through. And, all the politics and stuff involved, more just like the on the ground stories of of what he was doing mixing it with his story of life back home. So great read so far, pretty intense, but good good stuff as far as thinking about life and what it all means. Thanks for the positive feedback on the, previous episode with my kids, talking about Kyle and Kenny, talking about wieners.
Speaker 1:I'm always happy to raise the discourse, the level of discourse in the podcasting world like that. If you have questions I should ask my kids for a future episode of this podcast, I'd love to do so. If you have, if you're ever just wondering, not any marketing research folks out there, but if you're ever wondering what a nine, six, or three year old thinks about the world, leave a comment in the subreddits in the link below, or ping me on Twitter, iChris on Twitter with your question. So related to life and thinking about all this stuff, I have actually my fortieth birthday coming up in August and I don't really get too uptight about aging and the number of 39 I am right now. It doesn't worry so much.
Speaker 1:It does but 40 kinda does represent like a bigger it's like a like a milestone birthday. Right? It's a it's a number that signifies a certain passing of time and your late thirties or I'm sorry, early thirties, your late thirties, etcetera. Kinda, you know, they just like when you're in your twenties, they kinda just blend together. You're you're either in 20, 20, early thirties, late thirties, and all those things.
Speaker 1:Then 40 is kind of just one of those numbers and obviously society as as a whole kind of builds it up into a bigger event. And I know lots of people who are past 40 and just fine. That's why I don't really care so much about the 40 itself, but it does just kind of significant event as it were in in life. I don't know maybe it's also just because these last few years have been a real struggle for Sue and I with the ups and mostly downs of of running a business, having the financial struggles and stresses that are fairly self inflicted and just dealing with that and feeling like as a result of you know turning 40 and thinking, man, when I think of 40, I think of like people who have arrived and who are confident in who they are and know what they're doing and know that next month they're gonna pay their bill and the month after that and their mortgage and and things like that and not really not that somebody I don't aspire to be stuck and to be complacent and to be, have the mansion on the hill or even the large six bedroom house in the suburbs or whatever.
Speaker 1:It's not about that. It's more just like I think seeing it through through kids my kids' eyes and and you know, they're old enough now that I'm remembering the days when I was their age and thinking about my family and my parents and where they were at in their life at that stage when I was nine turning 10 and things like that. It's one thing when you're kind of young, they're little and you're not really don't they're not aware and you know they're not aware of all the stuff that's going on, the stresses in life. And coupled with that, it having this perception anyways, I that you know friends and family that aren't really that interested in you because maybe you don't have enough money or you don't have the right kids or you don't have the right kind of attitude about things sometimes or you you like to push conversations or it's very self inflicted. It's very much perception more than reality, I I really do believe.
Speaker 1:But once you allow your brain to go to a negative dark space, it's it could it's really hard to pull it back from that. And I wish we could say we're on the other side of this. It it keeps feeling like surely it's gotta be just around the corner. But I know even within this podcast, I've talked about this many times and I don't think that there's a space where I'm gonna arrive and feel like, few I can relax. I don't have to worry about anything ever again.
Speaker 1:That's certainly not my expectation of life, but I honestly kind of thought by now a certain balance, certain basis of of life and possibly income and things like that would be established and that's again with 40 coming up on the horizon. It kind of just pushes that mentally into my brain as like a, hey, you you haven't arrived. You don't have things together. 40 kind of signifies to me that I haven't really arrived and I know it's it's silly. When I say it out loud that's kind of why I do these podcasts like this and let myself ramble a bit because I know it's silly in in reality but you can't it's hard to fight the brain that tells you it's not in the darker moments And when our peers and, you know, younger families around us are are moving on to the next phases of life, taking their families on trips and going to exotic locations and things like that, and we're kind of like just trying to make sure each month goes okay and that we have enough to pay they have enough to make sure that we have money to buy our kids a small birthday present year after year that that just takes a toll.
Speaker 1:And so I I want to have hope. I want to believe that it's gonna improve. I know I have the choice to release this even though I've gotten really emotional and I'm going to probably anyways because you might not necessarily want to always listen to it or that's that might not be why you tune in and subscribe to these podcasts, but I know for myself it's it's a bit of a healing and and helps me get the thoughts out of my brain rather than just sitting with them here. So over the next while I'm hoping and planning and want to be positive in my outlook, mentally make that choice in the things that I choose to read, in the things I choose to tweet, retweet, share. The positivity doesn't rule out reality I guess in my mind, and so things like this this conversation, this episode still will happen.
Speaker 1:But I really want to try and choose to be positive and not let myself get stuck into the negative cycle that often consumes my thoughts, and especially working alone. It's very easy to sit and dwell. And in some ways, don't know that working alone is the best thing for me because I do have a tendency to get stuck in that mental rut. I hope you wanna stick around and journey with me through this by listening to the podcast and things, but I understand if it's not your thing and and you need to step off the the daily ish train as it were. If it all works out, I'm gonna release a video version of this to the Patreon folks just because I I had planned to record a video version.
Speaker 1:Just not nothing to do with the content, was a thing I wanted to do. So hopefully that all works out in the edit and so Patreon folks can watch a video version rather than listen to it if they want. But I guess it's too late to tell you that now. And I will see you again in the next episode. Thanks for listening.
Speaker 1:Have a great day. Bye.